Hello! My name is Kalina :3
Hello Blog!! I learned hype boy by new jeans today! Its a really fun dance and now whenever someone asks me a question i can be like hype boy! and I II I I know what u like boy (like boy) your myyyyyy chemical hype boy (hype boy).
I spent a lot of time coding, and I'm beginning to plan out my game for this website. I really liked the 2016 halloween google doodle, because of the cat. I also really want to make a rythm game like FNF or something but I'm not sure yet. I like cutie patootie games so there will definatly be a cat involved. I went to the night market today and they had lots of cool vintage clothing! yayyyyy I bought a shirt!
also, I would like to go to the gay club again and talk to the ladies. Last time I went everyone was studying for midterms and it was very sad.....
me and who
anyways, i finished off the day by rewatching crash landing into you... so good. I eat that show up nomnnomniomnom
I hate to be that guy but its so crazy that its 2023. I hate the way that time passes now... i feel like a hamster on a wheel i can never get off and i just have to keep running and running until my inevitable death.
anyways! i went to the vintage market today and it was so fun but also insanely crowded. To look at the things I had to push through so many people. I'm in the library right now so I can't take photos of what I got. I hope I remember lol...
I have been so procrastinating my calculus work... I missed friday cause i went to da CLUB thursday night which was kinda a waste because everyone was out studying for midterms... probably the smart choice but I did not meet any of the ladies. None of them. it was aweful. I have a lab to make up which is just a worksheet. It's posted on canvas and I took one look and shed a small tear down my cheek. so scary 3: I tutor students as a little side hustle, and I'm at the point where I feel like working on their schoolwork instead of mine. I love geometry tho so I mean who could blame a girl that likes interior angles. Yummm. I did some calculating and if I have this once student meet twice a week, I get $30 a week which is a nice buffer but erm, that wont pay the bills. I need to work 55 hours a week in order to make that, which is 55 tutoring sessions a week. I think I might start up charging because thats kinda crazy. But if I wanted to work 20 hours a week I need to charge $50 for an hour which is so unreasonable. But its my time!!! hmmmm..... maybe I'll make and sell clothes on etsy or something cause this is ridiculous. I don't wanna work booooooooooooo. Plus I make a lot of clothes already, so it would be baller. Bleh I don't like adult money. and its impossible to find a part time job in a college town thats actually decent.
BREHH I'm too lazy to upload the photos. I should tho. Any ways my bestie is in the psych ward rn... I miss her. :CCC
Today was the fullstack club meeting and I went and got the pizzas. Since I walked to campus, my only option was to walk there or to take a bus. Thankfully, there was a bus going there at a convient time so I hopped on! I waited a bit for my pizzas, and when I finally got them I underestimated my task. There were three large pizzas. Large meaning maybe like a yardstick on each side. And they were heavy. No bus was coming at a convient time... so I walked half a mile to campus. It wasn't a terrible walk. No major road but definently busy streets and sidewalks. Halfway through my walk, as my arms were shaking and cramping from holding the pizzas in an awkward position, a man commmented "go you!" as he walked past me. Because he was an older rougher white guy I though he was hitting on me but then I was like, no, that was encouragement. And then I cracked up. It was goofy. Once I completed my whimsical quest I joined the meeting again. The cheese lowkey slid off the pizza lol on one of them, but other than that they were so good and warm. I had three slices. On my walk home, a guy shouted out his card window "can I have a slice?" I didn't respond because thats how you get SHOT. I never recieve unwanted comments from men, so this was an experience. It wasn't terrible, just odd. Today I have learned I only recieve attention while carrying pizza from males.
I AM SO SICKK!!! cough cough cough. I think I caught swamp flu or something. my sinuses are gross and icky and i get hot sweats at night and bleggggg
i've been playing around with phaser and I cant wait to make my silly cat game. I really would like it to be a rythm game like muse dash or ddr but it might have to be more simple than that. I love verticle scrolling rythm games and I already have a dancing cat sprite pretty much I just need to make it dance to the beat! or something. I don't know. But I'll figure it out
I'm still sick. This is awful but I kinda sound like rainbow dash so im awesome. I'm taking antibiotics and they're destroying my tummy. Maxine slept over and I coughed onher to make her sick. I enjoy spreading my misery. I tutored my awesome student yesterday and we did triangles!! My favorite unit in geometry even though I'm enemies with trigonometry. Anytime someone mentions something like COTANGENT i die. I think blue is a neutral. Yesterday I went to five below and got the most stupid gudetama. He looks so dumb and maxine hates him so I bought him
He looks so dumb and when you pull up his mustache he has the weirdest smile. Only one big long tooth! I should make my christmas list also! i think i just want money, but then I would have to use that money for stuff like rent and I want to buy girl clothes. Bleeehhhh. I've been listening to a lot of jazz recently and it has been absolutly beautiful. I feel so ready for the winter and christmas spirit! Maybe I should get new socks. I love getting socks that are funny. Or new yarn! But i have a lot of yarn.
hello blog! i went shopping today and I took a photo of the magazine rack
I don't really know why I took this image. I thought all the crazy clickbait words and titles were funny so I wanted to capture it. I like the idea of diary photography! Taking pictures of things that tell the story of your day I think thats neat and silly. Not really much meaning behind it, but does there ever have to be? I don't know! :3 also check out these awesome mushrooms I saw today on campus
I wonder what kind it is. If anyone knows let me know. I tried teaching my illegal unofficial roomate how to code "her website and she put a stupid image of cat? the sukkomogurashi. I've been drinking lots of kombucha since i've been on my antibiotics! and i feel like an awesome health nut if i could afford it maybe I will continue the addiction it tastes so fun and silly I love my stupid vinegar drink. I really would like to do more nature trails in my city. Or I need to befriend more nature majors. I want to go out there and be like "thats a florwhjdksl akjflsdkjl tree!" also i just wondered like when you keyboard smash if theres a benford law to it. maybe its just the asjfl ness of the keyboard but i feel like that part is always everyones go to when they keyboard smash.
dude. everyone is going home for thanksgiving break and I cant because I have a calculus test on monday :C this is very terrible. And also a computer science test on tuesday, which I haven't gone to the lectures for in two weeks because I was sick so I have a lot of catching up to do. I really would like those credits! gggghhh. I just instead of hanging out with people over the weekend I'll study or something but man this sucks. I kinda wanted to go out and do something, I don't know. I'm going to make a list of things I can do that doesn't require friends.
o Feed the cats of Gainesville
o study in the martson
o Complete my million unfinished sewing projects
o Go on a lovely walk and carry pepper gel just in case
o Make new friends somehow
o Read mysteriously in plaza of the americas
o Work on my video game!
speaking of which, it's coming along quite nicely. I have to figure out the logic of the arrows tho and thats gonna kill me but one step at a time. Oh my god I probably missed a lot from computer science. I'm gonna look at the slides real quick and cry. Also my tabs weren't working because I made a silly mistake pffftt. I love coding and having so many typing errors. I've been using chatGPT to proofread my coding and I don't know if that counts as cheating or not but its really really helpful. I really need to work on my actual coding class and not just my side project.
Today was super rainy! I like it, but it's not fun to talk it. I went to grab coffee with someone and I had to walk there since I missed my bus :C
I'm board certified in autism by the way, as a disclaimer of this blog. (im diagnosed)
WARNING: Anti-semitism, racism, cults, sexual assult, suicide. Also I'm not an expert I'm just a girl.
Recently I've been seeing based retard gang on my FYP and my reels, and honestly I thought they were really funny. They have such deep layers of irony and really capture the feminine desire to be an enigma. I have BPD, beautiful princess disorder! I'm clearpilled! Stuff like that! The jokes tend to cycle around mental illness and spirituality, but never in a serious matter. Or so it seems. Me and my friend really enjoy them. She and I are both autistic (board certified), so perhaps we were drawn to the nonsensical and absurd videos in a way that related to our unique brain development or gut bacteria or whatever doctors think cause autism. Side note: the theory that your gut bacteria is related to autism is a very interesting one, considering that me and her both had lots of gasterointestinal issues as children. Anyways. We both were drawn to this page for whatever reason. Around the same time, I remembered I had a really big nyabeat phase in 2020/2021. She influenced me to get into J-Fashion, visual novels, idols, and many other chronically online stuff (besides j fashion j fashion is dope). She got cancelled in 2021 for being in a NEO NAZI CULT!!! which was. literally insane. Maybe neo nazi is a hyperbole but i remeber seeing neo nazi dog whistles (black sun especially). What was interesting was that the group (cult, whatever) was tied closely to Kali Yuga, which stems from hinduism. Me and my autismal friend both found it odd that this group had ties to hinduism, as did actual nazism. The swatstika was derived from indian culture, and also hinduism. We found this really amazing paper from cambrige that explored this connection in full. she read it really, not me. Lol. I'll link it here if anyone would like to read it. if she ever writes about this in her blog i'll link it as well. All this to say, we were both entralled when we found out KaliAcc and BasedRetardGang had connections. Their leader is the same person. Miya is Sonya is Charlotte Fang. It's so absurd to me. Some other nft guy made a callout thread, showing that Charlotte Fang was Miya/Sonya, which Charlotte admitted to but definetly attempted to damage control the callouts. Take the time to read, very interesting. Not to mention the whole suicide cult thing. Charlotte in a substack said that it was an overstatement to call it a suicide cult since only one person killed themself. In addition to this, they say that they had minimal participation in the project. Look at point 4 for more information. My favorite part of the twitter callout thread is the "dating rules"... it is so absurd. If you have time, cycle through all the links I have provided. They're.... interesting to say the least. The IQ wiki also has a very informative article on charlotte fang. Anyways, I'm not here to tell you what you should believe or not believe (although I believe he's a piece of shit), but just laying down the groundwork. Something I haven't address is "how do you know Charlotte Fang is BRG?". I really don't have any clear, hard evidence I can show you, sorry about that. All I have is clear linkages: simular messages in his posts the hashtag included in his twitter bio, and the promotion of Milady and Remilia NFTs in BRG videos occasionally. Please, go down this rabbit hole yourself, its really fun and I would rather you not take my work for all this infomration! It's a lot!
I don't know the victims of Kaliacc. I don't know the demographic of BRG. I only know me and my best friend, and this blog is based off of a conversation we had a couple nights ago. We both were totally addicted to this videos, and even after uncovering all the dirt and atrocities of the BRG, what did we do? Join their discord. We were drawn to this like moths to a flame. There's something so comforting about joining a group that gives you a clear and distinct identity but also causes you to follow rules and ahere to a certain mindset. We love to conform and we love to belog! perhaps this is true for any person, but the gravity to join something so dumb stupid and terrible perhaps is greater when those are things you lacked as a child. Or maybe the structure sooths the parts of our brains that crave routine and order. Constistancy. No change. Who knows. Of course, we did not actually join whatever BRG is, but their discord is really fun to look through. Austic females are more likely to be manipulated. I wish I could pull up a specific statistic for this, but its not too hard to believe. Not understanding social cues and expectations can make red flags invisible and harmful intentions look like genuine kindness.
I'll update this blog later. This is a half baked rambling of a young adult.
I must begin this blog post with a bit of a brag. The final unit test for my computer science class I got a 23/25 and finished the test in 10 minutes. I feel super smart and confident in my decision to major in computer science. Hooray! This week was stressful, since there was also a calc test that I had to make up. I love my professor, she is so enthusiastic about math! As I was taking the makeup test, she started spewing random math facts when I needed a brain break. I admire how much of a geek she is about mathematics. I love it when people have passions. People who are in perfomrances of any kind or are involved with the production of them, people who create things, people who spend hours a day working on a specific skill or learning about something specific, so so so cool. Passions are awesome, which is why being a professor is probably the best job in the entire world. geek out on something you love all week. Even though you get underpaid. Me and maxine went on many adventures, we went to a crick yesterday and explored. there was lots and lots of turkey tail mushrooms (or their lookalike, I can't tell yet). We saw three deer as well and a buck! Today we went to the art museam and walked around afterwards. I took a nap at our campus park and it was quite peaceful. The evening was finished with a free concert put on by the symphonic band. It was such a fufilling day today, and I hope my day tommorow is just as lovely!